Saturday, January 22, 2011

I won a lucky draw at work and the prize happened to be a free online strengths assessment by a company called Gallup Consulting. After answering 177 questions, I received the following test results which listed my main traits:

Intellection

You like to think. You like mental activity. You like exercising the “muscles” of your brain, stretching them in multiple directions. This need for mental activity may be focused; for example, you may be trying to solve a problem or develop an idea or understand another person’s feelings. The exact focus will depend on your other strengths. On the other hand, this mental activity may very well lack focus. The theme of Intellection does not dictate what you are thinking about; it simply describes that you like to think. You are the kind of person who enjoys your time alone because it is your time for musing and reflection. You are introspective. In a sense you are your own best companion, as you pose yourself questions and try out answers on yourself to see how they sound. This introspection may lead you to a slight sense of discontent as you compare what you are actually doing with all the thoughts and ideas that your mind conceives. Or this introspection may tend toward more pragmatic matters such as the events of the day or a conversation that you plan to have later. Wherever it leads you, this mental hum is one of the constants of your life.

Input

You are inquisitive. You collect things. You might collect information—words, facts, books, and quotations—or you might collect tangible objects such as butterflies, baseball cards, porcelain dolls, or sepia photographs. Whatever you collect, you collect it because it interests you. And yours is the kind of mind that finds so many things interesting. The world is exciting precisely because of its infinite variety and complexity. If you read a great deal, it is not necessarily to refine your theories but, rather, to add more information to your archives. If you like to travel, it is because each new location offers novel artifacts and facts. These can be acquired and then stored away. Why are they worth storing? At the time of storing it is often hard to say exactly when or why you might need them, but who knows when they might become useful? With all those possible uses in mind, you really don’t feel comfortable throwing anything away. So you keep acquiring and compiling and filing stuff away. It’s interesting. It keeps your mind fresh. And perhaps one day some of it will prove valuable.

Competition

Competition is rooted in comparison. When you look at the world, you are instinctively aware of other people’s performance. Their performance is the ultimate yardstick. No matter how hard you tried, no matter how worthy your intentions, if you reached your goal but did not outperform your peers, the achievement feels hollow. Like all competitors, you need other people. You need to compare. If you can compare, you can compete, and if you can compete, you can win. And when you win, there is no feeling quite like it. You like measurement because it facilitates comparisons. You like other competitors because they invigorate you. You like contests because they must produce a winner. You particularly like contests where you know you have the inside track to be the winner. Although you are gracious to your fellow competitors and even stoic in defeat, you don’t compete for the fun of competing. You compete to win. Over time you will come to avoid contests where winning seems unlikely.

Activator

“When can we start?” This is a recurring question in your life. You are impatient for action. You may concede that analysis has its uses or that debate and discussion can occasionally yield some valuable insights, but deep down you know that only action is real. Only action can make things happen. Only action leads to performance. Once a decision is made, you cannot not act. Others may worry that “there are still some things we don’t know,” but this doesn’t seem to slow you. If the decision has been made to go across town, you know that the fastest way to get there is to go stoplight to stoplight. You are not going to sit around waiting until all the lights have turned green. Besides, in your view, action and thinking are not opposites. In fact, guided by your Activator theme, you believe that action is the best device for learning. You make a decision, you take action, you look at the result, and you learn. This learning informs your next action and your next. How can you grow if you have nothing to react to? Well, you believe you can’t. You must put yourself out there. You must take the next step. It is the only way to keep your thinking fresh and informed. The bottom line is this: You know you will be judged not by what you say, not by what you think, but by what you get done. This does not frighten you. It pleases you.

Achiever

Your Achiever theme helps explain your drive. Achiever describes a constant need for achievement. You feel as if every day starts at zero. By the end of the day you must achieve something tangible in order to feel good about yourself. And by “every day” you mean every single day—workdays, weekends, vacations. No matter how much you may feel you deserve a day of rest, if the day passes without some form of achievement, no matter how small, you will feel dissatisfied. You have an internal fire burning inside you. It pushes you to do more, to achieve more. After each accomplishment is reached, the fire dwindles for a moment, but very soon it rekindles itself, forcing you toward the next accomplishment. Your relentless need for achievement might not be logical. It might not even be focused. But it will always be with you. As an Achiever you must learn to live with this whisper of discontent. It does have its benefits. It brings you the energy you need to work long hours without burning out. It is the jolt you can always count on to get you started on new tasks, new challenges. It is the power supply that causes you to set the pace and define the levels of productivity for your work group. It is the theme that keeps you moving.


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Sunday, January 9, 2011

Can't believe the weekend is over.
Imagine the journey to work.
Sleepy, dozing zombies on the train.
The Great Singapore Squeeze.
And sometimes I wished there are less people.
Even starting from home early doesn't work.

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Saturday, December 4, 2010

When I was attending school, I always hear tales of working friends collapsing on the sofa coming home from work. Well, at least, I thought those were tales used to turn down outings on weekends.
Now I am part of the story. When it was peaceful, pace of work was fast but manageable. During production release periods, work becomes overwhelming. Now I drop dead on the sofa easily and remain 'strung' throughout waking times.

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Friday, November 19, 2010


As my (and our) first project goes live, I bask in feelings of fulfillment (not complacency though).
After years of what I believe is development, this is actually the first time I am producing a serious piece of work. It's also my first system development life cycle.
yes, ownership of a piece of work feels great. conquering issues feels even better.
I'm sensing continual growth again.

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Friday, November 5, 2010

Where work life balance is concerned, I score badly.
Even while not physically in office, it's mentally unsettling to know there's a backlog.
I must learn to enjoy and not worry so much. Why is it so hard?


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Monday, November 1, 2010


i like my job working on a trading application
good benefits, nice environment, talented technologists.
Much to learn and explore. :)









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Sunday, October 17, 2010

Finally, after much consideration, i bought my first e-book reading device.
So much thinking and deciding while others are rushing for iPhones and iPad.
And I ended buying iRiver Story.
Why not iPad?
Too much for plain reading, way past my budget.
Why not Amazon Kindle?
Actually, Kindle is cheaper, even after shipping fees. But the major drawback is that it only supports Kindle and PDF formats, and there is no local warranty.

So far so good.
Now, I can finally put all my finance, technology and story books together and carry them with me. Next up: figuring how to use National Library's e-resources to extend my collection.


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Sunday, October 3, 2010

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6 weeks into work and it's the start of 7th week tomorrow.
Feeling? challenged absolutely.
I wouldn't think myself a fresh graduate, shirking responsibility.
I enjoy being ambitious, absorbing and learning all the time.
Programming, finance, people skills, etc.
I'm adapting to the pace and environment.
Knee deep in code.
Weekdays pass in a blink.
Weekends too.

I like Friday evenings.
I make it a point to dine and catch up with friends.
Friday is a "how're you doing?" day.
If we haven't yet met, please let me know :)

Tentative projections/plans:

- Start a long term investment
- achieve CFA level 1 by next year June
- Get a ebook reader (damn, why doesn't Amazon ship Kindles/ Kindle content to Singapore?)
- Ceteris Paribus, stay frugal !

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Saturday, September 11, 2010

Recently I started a black book.
I bought a black leather notebook, hence a "black book."
I realized no matter what i read, nothing sticks.
So it dawned on me that i needed to capture the essentials which could be useful.
The inspiration came from a friend whom i attended a weekend course with.
He used a notebook to jot down the subtleties while he was learning C++.
So far, this way has worked well for me.

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For the past few days at work, I went through any documentation I could find.
It was quite disappointing having no direction. I wanted to get ahead but I was getting nowhere.
The worst thing is not knowing what you don't know.
And I wonder why things are fragmented.
On my own, I am still using weekends to catch up.


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Thursday, September 2, 2010

it's almost 2 weeks into work.
i miss my days wearing t shirt, shorts and slippers,
although i readily embraced the experience of swimming in a big firm.
it's a boundless sea of systems & procedures. terms & abbreviations.
likewise, there is no dearth of new skills and knowledge to pick up.
team meetings were often. there were overseas visitors too.
emails came in hundreds every day. 2 weeks of email can easily beat my one year's worth of personal mail.
the corporate world surely exposed the chinks in my armor.
i was a wet blanket at recent social occasions because i was afraid to speak up. i couldn't articulate well at meetings too.
Certainly it's a high paced environment.

but i believe, slowly but surely, i will bridge my weaknesses.

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Friday, August 20, 2010


I secretly wish time wouldn't pass so fast.
I want more time to get ready.

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Monday, August 16, 2010

Finally the lazy man has new blog design templates to choose from.
It's been a while since I truly did my own blog template.
I've always emphasized simplicity, clarity and all about being a minimalist.
That has some truth. But the other side of the coin is that I've gotten sick of custom designs.

This blog finally had a makeover. But it has fallen to disuse. Heck.

Recently, I have been doing things I never believed in.

First, I registered for corporate photography. I actually enjoyed the process. I didn't have to bring anything. The folks at the studio had the blazer, formal shirt, and tie. A makeup artist did some light makeup for me. It did for a moment felt quite fun.

Secondly, I tailored more formal shirts with bold colors. And I visited the tailor a few times. Each time I gathered more fabric knowledge through casual conversation with the store owner.

Thirdly, I signed up for a weekend course and went in for the first lesson in slippers and shorts. The material are a bit dry though. A few people looked drowsy after lunch. There were group work and presentations. My group members either ignored what I said or spoke so fast that I stood no chance to pick up any meaningful idea of what was said.


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Saturday, August 7, 2010

4 more days to end of national service.
I can already see in my mind's eye my pink identity card.
Thanks to a friend, I found a job. I'm excited about starting work, probably because I have been a workaholic all these years. I want to learn new skills and make new friends.

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Saturday, July 24, 2010

2 more weeks to the end of NS.
The nearer the date, the further it seemed.
I just applied for 3 days of leave followed by Saturday and Sunday which effectively bailed me out from camp for the past few days.
I had good reasons for doing so, for I attended a job interview on Friday and took prior 2 days to prepare. If the interviewing game is not my nature, then nurture be the way.
I revised my Java topics wholeheartedly and researched the company. I felt the interview was okay. It all depends on them now.
Five more days and I would know if my research paper has been accepted for conference. I hope it does. Then, I would get a chance to travel and to present.
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Saturday, July 10, 2010

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Exactly one month to 10 August 2010.
Operationally released date.
And thank god, I have 6 days of unused leave.
That amounts to 1 whole week off duty.

What's my story so far?
Convocation/graduation ceremony just ended 3 days ago.
Took lots of photos with lots of people.
Also made an appearance on live broadcast during the graduation.

Have been using weekends to get enough rest at home and also work on improving/upgrading skills. Also achieved certain milestones over the past 1-2 months.

- Self-learnt the basics of economics and finance
- Currently learning to program in Perl
- Set up a linked in profile
- Set up a personal website
- Cleared 3-4 paperbacks

Truly a good time for self-reflection while waiting for recruiters to call.

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Saturday, June 26, 2010

45 more days (roughly 6 weeks) to ORD
I was relocated to a new place completely shut out from the world.
Hand phone reception was poor.
I volunteered for any task which kept me occupied so that time wouldn't just "crawl."

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Thursday, June 3, 2010

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Good news and bad news.

Bad news is that I am back in camp.
I owe 'them' 83 days of service.
amounts to 2 months 3 weeks. FML.
fortunately I am taking on a much more passive role.

Good news is that I've gotten my results and my efforts paid off well.
a first-class honors. my goal met.
despite so, my supposedly secured job, under some unlucky circumstances, is now unconfirmed.
to hedge the risk, i am rethinking my goals and applying for more jobs.

i m dead broke. 10 June 2010, please come soon. i need my allowance.

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Wednesday, May 26, 2010

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Although I'm not any gifted in music or knowledgeable about it, I still like listening and watching this:






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Friday, May 21, 2010

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Back to camp
to serve my remaining 83 days
the freedom after exams/graduation was short lived
it's again back to the exact settings three years ago
i called it the "stock exchange"
except that most of the faces are new
i wish i can fast forward 83 days
come on, let me move on! don't lock me in here!

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Sunday, May 16, 2010

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take a present snapshot of me
i am well aware that i have changed
for the better or for the worse borders on the contentious
but one thing for sure, i know i have changed in a number of ways
i asked why food isn't ready barely two minutes upon order
i try hard to avoid crowds to move quickly
did i expect life to function like computers?
i also get increasingly critical
What i learnt in classroom was impractical
i begin to identify things that matter
crisp truths versus fluff which smothered my senses






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