I'm grateful to those who helped me in my pretest survey.

I know I haven't talked to some of you in ages and for this once i did, it was shamelessly for a survey. I feel bad about this but I have no choice since I don't have a lot of contacts to begin with.

Anyway, thank you if you have taken part in this survey. =)

I am left with about 6 more responses.

Hopefully things will be alright.

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I realized even after the examinations, days still flew by.
many of my peers took upgrading and certification courses.
i choose not to do the same.
Just to offload my heavily stressed pea brain.
I was back in work, working on my badly managed honors year project.
I still hate what happened.
dialogue sessions, feedback? lip service.
so like Shakira says, "so don't bother~"
perhaps more foresight but not so much as to have oversight.

I need to learn statistics, experiment design and conduct pretest and pilot test all in one month.
To my horror, the help I envisioned would not be available as most of the people would be overseas for a conference until the 20th.
I was referred to a PhD student. I contacted him and he told me he was going back to China.
And come 20th, it dawned on me that it's 5 days to xmas.
It feels like one of those many times that I want to throw in the towel or raise a white flag.

I want to "biang biang" people.

The examinations have finally ended.
i feel like a plane which has flown across the Atlantic Ocean.
The wings are battered and a few screws are falling off.
It's going to take a long time to service this plane.

Struggles

I believe that nobody reads this blog anymore.
reason(s):
1. This blog has been abandoned for a long time.
2. Its owner only writes about school and nothing else.

Still, I want to say that this has been a painful semester.
night after night my teammates and I stayed in school.
I think I must have wrote more than 10000 lines of code.
The number of report pages exceeded 500.
And a final presentation rehearsal spanned 7 hours with the final presentation hitting 3 hours.
What you've just read is not a myth, it is a module. One module.
Together with a honors year research project and two other modules, a perfect hell was conceived.
In retrospect, I learned a few things,
- clever and bright people may not make the best teammates.
- never use windows vista + eclipse for development. Horribly slow.
- tough men may last, but tough times may last even longer.
- Murphy's law always hold. perfectly fine programs crumble during presentations.

I m tough but I have broken down a few times amidst these tougher than tough times. The next things coming up is an exam and finally operationalizing my research. If you read, pray for me. I need lots of luck for the next few months.

I stopped updating for a while because I was busily writing and programming in school.

It's been the toughest semester so far.

For last one week alone, I stayed over two nights in school. In total, for the entire semester until now, the number of stay overs must have easily exceeded ten.

it's two weeks to the end of all horror, a 200+ functions system with reports spanning two to three hundred pages.

why must "they" do this to us? it's horribly unfair to drive us to do honors year project and deliver a large system at the same time. Had that not been the case, programming would have been more fun and days wouldn't be gloomy.

I wish god would hear me and show me the way.
I may look strong and loud.
But I do have a lot of inner fears and frustrations.

I learned not to complain.

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I'm having a crazy semester.
last few weeks I felt like a fish out of water.
almost every day was spent in meetings and discussions.
there's so much to do and so little time on hand.
a lot of things happened recently.
a few good buddies from NUS and SMU flew off.
didnt get to send them off.
Grandma is in hospital.
Just terminated the wireless internet at home. switched to mobile broadband since it is cheaper overall. $14.50/month
Finally changed phone. Not a fantastic upgrade, but still a reasonably useful phone. E71 has much of what I need without burning a hole in my pocket.
Still working hard on my research topic.
Took a pharmacology module this semester as well. It is quite interesting and low in workload. 2 hours lecture/ week. no tutorials or projects. But you have to remember names of medications.
There's just so much more to write but I think I will update when I have the time.